Читать онлайн HISTORY OF THE FUTURE, Book 1: Meeting With Happy Smile (Part One)
Introduction
Hello kind energy,
I want to believe;
This moment itself is of your own creation.
Your inner being is guided you here with a purpose – to open new doors toward a brighter future for yourself.
You have created this connection with this book by believing that there are far higher levels of happiness are possible for you in this life.
And I want to share with you: you are right.
Feel this moment – and this book – as a true affirmation, a message from your future self.
There are many different levels of happiness creation in this life, and you are invited to tap into them – to create more of it, exactly the way you want it to be, in your reality.
I want to believe this book will begin to support you in understanding the value of a true happy smile. It will support you to create more freedom, and in living your life the way you want, instead of the way you were told ‘you need to.’
And with this approach, I want to add: I want this book to be read by curious energies who truly want to read it.
Over the past year, I have been living the happiest, most alive, and most conscious time of my life.
With a few simple codes and practices, I began to re-code and train my mind to share my attention with the things I truly want in my life.
Every day, I witness that, with the right approach, life has far more to offer than what the system around me has been ‘feeding’ me to believe in.
Through the experiences and events shared in this book, my energy has transformed and shifted completely.
Step by step, I have been opening myself to understanding what I truly want – and the ways to want the things that are already in my reality.
I began to open up the doors toward carrying myself with love and respect and to share my authentic self with the people around me, free from masks and roles.
It grows a great power within me to be able to share that: I see my path clearly – and with the right mindset, and by taking conscious steps, I am growing the version I want to be.
Starting to believe in myself was such a trippy journey.
At the beginning of my experience, I manifested a cartoon-like grown man— one who carries a big plan for all of humanity, with many projects stretching all the way to the year 2046.
All of the ideas, moves, and visions he shared were always revolving around the creation of happiness and love.
Through his beautiful inside world, I found the opportunity to grow my belief that happiness and love are the greatest powers in this reality.
In our daily conversations, he would casually share the most unusual, visionary, and deeply insightful perspectives about life – about how to delete limiting beliefs from one’s mind, and about the future of this planet.
The way I see it, he is here in this life to connect with alive energy and to share the codes that will re-program the human mind in support of humanity’s evolution.
To focus on and create more happiness for one’s future, he shared with me super-simple – yet deeply meaningful and effective – ways of looking at life.
Those ‘codes’ completely shifted my perspective, reshaping my thinking habits and guiding me into a new state of being… a frequency where I feel truly alive.
‘Alive’ in way that I feel sure of myself— and more aligned with my true self.
And now, I feel the time has come to present this energy and path to the world.
My intention in writing this book is to make these meaningful messages and codes available for everyone.
I want them to reach all the people who chooses to use them consciously and who wants to understand the wonderful future that will open up in their lives when they choose to grow it with attention.
My goal is to happy smile.
I want to spread this valuable, future-oriented, happiness-based mindset among kind, conscious, and intelligent people.
Thank you for being here.
1. PEELING THE MASKS OFF
I’m writing to you from mid-December, 2023 from today’s perspective.
After having quite a deep talk with Happy about this topic, I started to record our talks to be in this book;
“I want to remember what you shared with me, you said; people in this reality are forgetting who they are. They forget why they came to live here in the first place, and forget to look for themselves, who they are under their ‘kabuk.’ ”
Even though our conversation was in English, he chose to use this one word in Turkish: kabuk – which means the bark of a tree.
Beginning of the conversation he was giving a metaphor about how people are living with masks.
“It is similar to trees having barks,” he said. “When it’s time for the tree to peel off its bark, shiny, fresh skin comes outside.
Same with people, when they are leaving their last mask, they start to shine and start living their life as their true self.”
And with a cheerful tone, he added:
“And I am really ‘funning’ inside of myself, like there is a little kid inside, watching all of humanity from afar. You cannot see it, yet I am having fun… and wondering what happened in this reality… that all humans – ALL, ALL HUMAN – forgot who they are. For what they came here. All energy forgot. They came from different places to here and forgot what happened. And it is such a big loop here. I am sharing, under the last mask—”
I cut in, with the little excitement of resonating with the information he was sharing:
“Oh! Kabuk (bark) itself is holding onto all these masks, and those masks are coming from the past!”
“Yes, yes this kabuk (bark) is holding onto all masks. It is coming from the past, it means. And we; our energy is like a tree. When we understand who we are, we feel our bodies the same way, like peeling them off to witness a fresh trunk coming underneath.
And ta-da! No kabuk (bark) anymore. And you will start to feel yourself, green and fresh. You will start to feel yourself new.” He said in a cherished manner, with his improving English.
I was vividly imagining a thick bark around my body, that I have been carrying all these years. All the roles I was playing as a sister, daughter, employee, woman, friend… And all the masks I was choosing to put on with every new person and situation, with different reasons and habits, I was covering what was real underneath. It was more visible to me after the last 9 months I had the experience of living with him.
I started to imagine that bark getting thinner and parts of it falling off, to let my true shine coming outside. It made me feel warm inside, found myself happy and smiling.
“I want that.” I said.
Happy seemed to take my conscious wanting as a sign that I was beginning to understand the topic even deeper. His eyes lit up as if he wanted to show me a glimpse from the future.
“Understand? How people will become when they are without masks? Imagine there is no one mask… and you will become green. You will be touching your skin and understanding every second filled with amazing feelings like your time is expanding in every alive second.
And there are more interesting experiences with this body, I want to share—”
He paused for a second, and smiled as if what he was thinking to share was a secret. Looked into my eyes like a little kid and added:
“Later.”
2. HOW IT ALL STARTED
Beginning of 2023, I was having a solo travel through Asia. After having my time in India, I choose to turn my destination towards Thailand.
A few days after my arrival to Bangkok, I started to understand all I wanted was —to relax. Being on a tropical island, letting go of myself in the beautiful crystal waters, while holding a fresh coconut sounded like an amazing idea.
I got myself a ticket to a night train and found myself on the north side of an island, called Koh-Phangan. It felt truly like heaven on earth: Very calm, silent, and super clean beach, with very kind local and foreign people around.
After a few days of my arrival to the island, I started having a deep internal conversation with myself about what I truly wanted from my life.
I very much wanted to find myself… and the version of me that I want to become in this reality.
A version who is sure of herself. Happy. Unbothered with whatever coming her way. Shining with a warm smile coming from inside.
I had this feeling for years – that I am here for the betterment of myself.
And I deeply wanted to find my true ways to it…and share the way to it, with people who want the same.
I knew that my beliefs and perspectives on life were creating my experiences in life. And I was sharing my own way of looking at life with people around me.
Still, I was not %100 sure about my own goal and purpose in this life.
After a while, I find a moment of serenity and look at the sky. As in a way of talking with God, I said:
‘’In my past relationships, I found myself in such dynamics that it wasn’t exactly how I wanted to be. For my future, I want a person who I can grow with. Who I can learn from and start understanding myself and this life better, together. Who sincerely wants to go into my deeper waters.
It is time, I want to experience true love, and true partnership… and evolve with that person, every day.”
I even mention that I am ready for a person, more aged, who has way more experience in this life than me.
The next day, fuelled by my aspirations for a different future expressed towards the sky, I decided to explore the other side of the island. Where I heard about the variety of events there… and a more active lifestyle going on.
My goal was to find affordable – or even free – friendly accommodation.
Through CouchSurfing, I connected with an incredible Italian friend who generously opened his house to me without any expectations. Thank you, Antonio.
After finding a place to stay, I shared the location with a Thai lady, who wanted to support me in getting a taxi.
When I checked Google Maps, there weren’t many pinned places around the location I wanted to go.
Only one place in the same street called; “Happy House”.
She checked the map, and glanced around the house, with a thoughtful ‘mmhm’ she said ‘Happy House’ a few times.
She called the driver and started a rapid conversation about the place in Thai language. Between the not-understandable Thai words, all I managed to pick up was her repeated mention of “Happy House.”
Going back to that day, I find myself smiling, realizing how many times she implanted those words into my mind.
Life itself seems to be coding my mind, programming me to become familiar with it.
The day I reached Antonio’s place, I felt his calm energy. He was very kind and cared deeply about my comfort.
He shared with me insights about the happenings on the island and recommended events for me to check out.
When I expressed my love for dancing, he generously offered me his scooter for the next day, allowing me to attend a dance event happening in the daytime.
The next day, I used the opportunity and went to an ecstatic dance event, and danced all evening freely.
After the event, I was feeling full of vibrating energy, enjoying that I had done what I wanted to do for a long time.
With a growing feeling of vibrating inside of me, I decided to go around and discover the island. I find an amazing spot to swim and watch a beautiful view of the sun setting into blue waters with lots of gorgeous colors.
Having a full day with events mostly by myself, got me thinking that I was ready to make new friends on this island. Even a lover, perhaps.
I hopped on the motorbike and started driving around the island, while the warm breeze swept. I start looking for a restaurant to eat dinner.
As I passed by a place named “Gummy Bears” I felt the very strong, magnet-like pull, calling my energy. The feeling I was experiencing was incredibly strong – almost unbelievable.
Even though I was still riding my bike forward, I was looking back towards the place, with a fascination and confusion of not understanding what was happening inside of me.
Even my entire focus was on what was happening at Gummy Bears, I parked my bike a bit further away and checked the restaurant next door.
Fortunately, the neighbor’s restaurant was full and I had an internal dialogue going on.
Finally, I found the bravery to tell myself, “What the heck – go and find out what’s happening there.”
I left my motorbike and started walking towards the entrance of ‘Gummy Bears.’ The name alone had a whimsical charm to it. As I entered the restaurant, I felt the cozy ambiance.
What truly caught my attention was this interesting-looking guy, sitting inside. His age – I couldn’t even guess.
He had bright yellow, very eye-catching sunglasses, with striking neon yellow hair, and a quite funny tattoo popping through his neck.
He had a plate of delicious-looking Thai food in front of him.
In a rather sophisticated manner, I asked, “Is the food any good here?” with an accent like Hermione Granger’s. Without having been to Britain ever, in my life.
“Y-yees” he said with a thick Russian accent. His voice was resonating deep within his stomach.
I smiled and stepped towards another table.
“Where are you going? Come sit” he invited, pointing to a chair in front of him.
Happily, I moved to the empty chair in front of this enigmatic stranger.
He introduced himself, saying, “My name is Happy Smile,” and smiled while looking deeply into my eyes – almost as if waiting to catch my reaction.
It struck me as unusual to hear a grown man introduce himself with a name that sounded like a character from a children’s book. It felt a little cheesy at that moment, as I was more into things that sounded “cool.”
I introduced myself. He continued gazing into my eyes as if he had never seen another person before. I smiled, with warm feelings rising inside me.
A few minutes later, another man arrived – blonde, with the same-colored neon beard, moustache and bright yellow sunglasses – and joined us at the table.
He introduced himself with a Russian accent, as “Kirill”.
Observing the two of them together – both with their matching glasses and vibrant neon hair and beard – felt like a scene from a movie.
I asked if both of them were from Russia. Happy Smile replied that he was born in Uzbekistan.
“Oh, I guess Uzbek people have a similar culture to ours. I am from Turkey.” I shared.
Kirill was doing most of the talking. He began to share with me about ‘Happy Smile’ not just as the name of his friend, as a growing brand that they were both passionate about.
He shared about their vision to change the whole world with a message of love and happiness – backed by a profound business and marketing strategy.
It was fascinating to see how much they believed in what they were sharing about.
After a while, Happy shared with me their slogan:
“Happy Smile, Right Choice.”
I thought about it, and smiled.
I didn’t think too much in that moment.There was nothing contradictory about happy smiling in my mind.
I’ve always loved to smile – and I deeply believe that looking at life with a more positive perspective makes every experience lighter and more pleasant.
I was very hungry while waiting for my food. Happy read my situation and shared his food with me saying “It is my second plate; you start eat, please” while looking at me with the kindest smile.
After a while, Happy told Kirill that he couldn’t believe such a beautiful girl had come to sit at their table. They both looked at me with fascination. I couldn’t help thinking maybe I was different from all the women they had encountered in their country. I felt flattered and a little shy.
It’s hard to tell whether it was ten minutes after we met or thirty.
One interesting subject followed another, and Krill openly shared with me that Happy lives a totally different lifestyle – unlike probably any other human I’ve met in my life.
When I showed interest in what he meant, Happy said that he doesn’t use money.
He chooses not to connect with it – and he is simply not interested in following money in his life anymore.
At that moment, I didn’t and couldn’t share much attention with this topic.
Couldn’t even find myself to ask: How could a person live a life without interacting with any money? or why would he choose to live in such a way?
The only thought I had was that this island is full of surprises and unique individuals, in many ways.
His finances weren’t my interest at all. I wasn’t there to expect anything from him. Mostly, all I said was, “Wow, I’m happy that you can keep it up for yourself.”
I assumed his friend was taking care of him or something along those lines.
His face took on an extra edgy look with his square sunglasses frame. His yellow lenses were concealing his deep brown eyes like a filter. It felt like he was looking into my soul through that lens as if he was able to read details about my past and future.
Gently, I asked him to take off his glasses. I wanted to grasp his eyes and face fully.
When he did, I saw a gentle human looking at me with deep love and kind eyes.
I realized my brain couldn’t quite comprehend him as a human until that moment. Just a second ago, he seemed like a different being.
He wasn’t sharing many words, still I was feeling his energy very present.
After a while, he reached his hands towards the table and said, “Give me your arm.”
I was intrigued and ready to stretch my whole arm towards him. Later, I found out that his English was quite limited, and he had wanted to ask for my hand.
When I stretched my whole arm towards him, he had the chance to see my tattoo, with a message saying “See Behind Roles.”
And he chose to see behind all of them.
He held my hand, and I felt his beautiful, gentle energy, perfectly matching with mine. I felt so comfortable the second as I touched his skin. We stayed holding hands for a while in silence.
I had a lot of spiritual mojo-jojo moving inside my mind in those moments. I had recently received my Reiki certificates, and I was actively practicing “sharing energy through the symbols” for protection, love, and connection—for myself and for anyone whom I wished to share these energies with.
Deep down, since the moment I sat down, I had been sharing Reiki energy with this new person I had just met. I felt a bit perplexed by his high energy and had an overwhelming desire to return the visit with good vibes and love vibrations.
After a while, he looked up at me and said, “Wow, amazing energy. I feel you. You want to create a beautiful future.”
Not too many words, still very intriguing.
His vibe felt very relaxed and grounded. All the words coming out of his mouth sounded very sure, even with his limited English.
After my pause, his friend became serious and shared with me that Happy has the ability to see the future.
‘He is floating into his future and coming back to today’s reality when he wants.’ His friend said.
And he was talking about it so casually, as if it were a skill every one out of ten people possessed on this planet. I was surprised and not sure how to react to this information.
Towards the end of the night, I was swept away by the energy going on between us, realizing that my interest was growing towards this enigmatic stranger.
From the moment we met, Happy and his friend shared a few perspectives on life, that I refer them as ‘codes’.
Such as: not focusing on the past (to create next-level, brand-new experiences, different than what you have already experienced.)
And talk from the perspective of ‘wants’ instead of talking from any ‘needs’ or ‘don’t wants’.
Simply, they were pointing out that by changing just a few words—words that almost everyone uses daily—they were changing the codes they used to program their minds.
They were sure that by using words with respect and understanding, they were changing their perception, and eventually their lives. This was intriguing for me; I wanted to understand more.
“It is possible by deleting the parasite words from our talks,” Happy said.
Words such as “need,” “must,” “should,” “have to” … and any expression that points to necessity, obligation, or a mindset that drifts people away from being sure.
Not harboring any “needs” and living in a state of trust and abundance sounded very radical to me in that moment. He was very focused on the words he was using and believed that words were programming his life. Whatever codes he chose, he wanted to be sure they were clean codes, and that he meant them 100%.
He held a strong belief that his needs were already met and always would be. By being very serious about this topic and using his words very intentionally , he was strengthening his own self-belief.
He spoke with confidence about the fact that words create our future. For him, refusing to use those words was the most effective way to stop creating “needs,” “musts,” or “have to’s” in his future.
Preferring to speak in terms of “wants” instead was creating an entirely different mindset.
Side Note
After having the opportunity to experiment with Happy Smile’s ideology, I start to believe in the power of coding and respecting my words truly;
I understand the assignment more deeply than before. From now on, I would like to change the code ‘need’ and start writing ‘2334’ instead.
My goal is to share this experimental lifestyle of coding my reality (without the parasite words) and the journey of believing in myself, most truly and cleanly possible.
This is my way of raising my awareness and sharing what I truly find valuable in my practices with humanity.
I understand this language is new for many people. And it has never been done in a bigger united community of people. Yet.
One question I have for you dear reader is:
“Do you want to experiment with clean coding and create a new reality (exactly how you want) for yourself?
I believe it is time to use the information we have as humans, start being way more aware of our own coding, and use the words with their true meanings with sureness, in unity.
Every person I had a conversation with, has the information that words are powerful.
Yet even after having conversations around this topic and sharing their wants to delete “have to”s or ‘2334’s from their language, I often witnessed them using these words on autopilot.
Even when they just want to share that they like a dessert in a place and they want a friend to taste it.
Autopilot mind takes over, and they choose to share and create a necessity by coding, that their lovely friend ‘2334‘ go and try that dessert.
I believe this life is like a video game.
Choosing to want every step, and code with the feeling of ‘wanting’, changed the game for me.
This practice supports me every day to follow and focus on my true wants instead of what I or other people think I “should” or “2334’ in my life.
I am choosing to change the code and start wanting everything in my life coded as ‘should’, ‘must’ or ‘2334’ and grow my belief that I am a free human. I got to want everything in my life.
And the more I believed in it, the more I felt the support of time, deleting those ’2334y’ situations from my life.
Thanks for your attention, let’s dive into the story.
Those times, I wasn’t as familiar with these subjects as I am today. And Happy’s beginner-level English was making it a bit more mysterious for me to solve his perspective on life.
As a yoga teacher and a self-improvement seeker, I was super interested in the topic of reprogramming my mind and using my words wisely for it.
I was sharing my perspective on the topic with him, yet I wasn’t sure how much of my words he was truly understanding. He mentioned that until that day, I was the first non-Russian speaker he had a proper conversation with.
Still, I felt our connection and his presence on another level from the beginning.
After an attempt to share a past trauma of mine – to point out how my approach has changed now about that experience, and how grown I am after the pain I have encountered in my life – within my first words, I felt Kirill’s looks on me, with his elevated eyebrows.
I understood what I was doing and I shared space with myself to step out of my autopilot mind.
What was the point of going back to the past and using their attention to put into a version of me, that I was proud to evolve into something new? It was already past.
I understand the game they were playing deeper that second.
I decided that I truly want to let us all be new and free from our pasts, to live a fresh life without any assumptions or limited beliefs of yesterday. (Which took a long time to get used to.)
So, I decided not to talk about my past, what university I finished, how young I am, and what is the age of Happy Smile. Even I was super curious about that part.
After our food was done, I was feeling quite elevated and content, as if I were in a slightly different, happier realm.
I heard this island is built on rose quartz rocks, which are known as ‘love stones’. Island magic, I thought.
Then the man without money asked me if I wanted to go to their villa.
“Oh?” I said. “A Villa?” ‘Yeah. Happy House,” he said with a very big smile on his face.
Kirill started to share proudly how he made a pin for their place on Google Maps.
It turned out to be that same house, on the same street where I was staying, as you can guess.
Since it was next door to where I already was staying, I agreed easily, to go and visit their villa.
On the way, they shared with me the story of it.
They stumbled upon this abandoned villa (or ‘lost villa’, as they call it) while exploring the island. It had a pool and furniture inside.
The owner hadn’t been in Thailand for the last 3 years. By chance, they managed to contact the owner through his lawyer. And they found a way to stay and even host parties there.
Kirill’s eyes were shining in a way while sharing with me his perspective about Happy;
‘Happy hacked this life, somehow, and he always finds his way to be landed on his feet, in any scenario.’
We went to the villa. There were a few cozy yellow puffs on the terrace, which Happy was very fond of. Palm trees in front and the pool behind us, it was such a beautiful place to relax.
We lay under the sky full of stars, touched hands, and listened to a music set that he mentioned he had recorded.
“I do DJing,” he said, his eyes shining with love, as he spoke about his music.
The amount of love a person could share with mixing music was something I couldn’t fully grasp at the time.
“I love all the music. All music is made by love on this planet, there is no other way.” He said. He was very passionate about it.
Piece by piece, I allowed myself to immerse myself in his music and into his arms.
A few days later, he shared with me that he had promised himself not to make any moves on any lady until he heard “I want you” from her lips.
“With you, there weren’t any questions,” he said. “It was clear you were following your wants. You wanted to be near me, and you were sure about it.”
Waiting for a woman to approach him, and wanting the first move or expression of their wants, truly, could be tricky for many people, I thought.
When he shared more about this matter, “Oh baby, before, I believed that a woman could not be interested in men without any money” he said.
In his past life, he paid for everything every time. He even encouraged his other male friends to pay for checks and provide fully, in many cases. And in his past life, love was correlated to having and using that money to get the attention man wants.
“You are the first one that is not interested if I have money or not.”
3. NOT A REGULAR HUMAN PERSON
I started to figure out more about the dynamics between Kirill and Happy Smile.
After being alone for quite a long time and diving deep into his consciousness, Kirill entered Happy’s life.
With him, Happy began to understand more about how to connect through the alive frequency he now carried.
Even though their focus was on creating a business, Happy was also mentoring Kirill to feel more alive and happier by sharing his lifestyle.
He supported him to believe in himself more – to be aware that he was creating everything in his reality, one way or another.
For Kirill, it was now time to create consciously, with true happiness and love at the center of his plans..
Kirill seems very impressed with Happy’s knowledge about life and the experiences he got to have with him.
One day he shared with me that he had a near-death experience, and that Happy brought him back to life.
After that time, he started to understand Happy’s energy differently. He got convinced that Happy is not a regular human person.
I felt like he got into a new reality with Happy Smile, and it was all a new concept for Kirill’s processor.
I wasn’t understanding the process he was going through. Over time I understood that “being alive” means living life in awareness and playing in life as the main character, as a person who has a big attention in making the right choices.
It was a big transformation in life, and around those times, Kirill was feeling the pressure of it.
After lots of intense Russian conversations I witnessed between them and their friends, I started to understand what was going on a little better.
Happy was a former businessman with many creative ideas.
He was sharing revolutionary ways with Kirill – to build a very big, never-before-done type of business around the Happy Smile brand.
Since we met, without exception, in every one of his conversations Happy talks about love and happiness. Even when it was about building any type of business around the Happy Smile brand, his priority was that everybody involved would be happy smiling – and earn equally.
During those times, I felt I had already thought for a long time about the concepts of love and happiness in my life.
I was sure happiness was the ultimate truth and goal in my life. So deep down I was thinking Kirill might be not so rooted in these concepts. Surrendering to life and starting to trust in it, might take time and it was okay.
Happy became such a welcoming and natural character in my life all of a sudden. I wanted to support and understand his vision in any way.
We had many talks about many plans he has for the future. I kept wanting to share my visions on it in any way I was able to, to make it a dialogue.
It was very challenging for my naïve mind and ego to accept that there were wider waters to swim in.
(It took me time to fully understand that the only way to receive new information was by emptying my cup first – a cup full of past information and beliefs.)
Step by step, I understood that he had thought of and planned many steps toward a beautiful future – not only for himself, for everyone who would want to be involved in it.
He had clear plans and steps toward a future I never dared to imagine. Hearing about it was growing my belief in a happier future.
Our conversations made me realize that supporting people to happy smile was also making me happy smiling.
On the second day, I woke up to find that everything was moving very fast. When people were not talking about the past, there were lots of future plans being discussed.
With feelings of happiness inside, Happy and Kirill started to share their plans for the coming days.
The plan was to make an event in front of the 7-Eleven shop where Happy will be playing as a DJ and start growing attention around the Happy Smile brand.
It sounded like a fun event to attend – sharing about love and happiness, meeting new people, and enjoying good music. I said ‘all right’ while thinking it would be great to see him playing for the first time.
“And do you want to do this event, for free?” I asked, knowing DJs get lots of money on the island for the events they do.
“I am not touching money baby; we are only interested in donations from people who want to donate for it.” He said.
Kirill showed me a plain brown box and said, “Here, we even have a donation box.”
I took the box on my lap with pens and markers, and started painting and drawing happy smiles intuitively while we chatted about the event.
When I was done with drawing, Happy looked at the box and showed it to Kirill;
“See? Only now, we have the true Happy Smile Donation Box. She did it with love and not for any expectation from me, it is not for me or you. Wanted, and did it.”
I was surprised at how he spoke about my smallest action as if I had just built the whole business myself.
I was really happy smiling and motivated to follow my genuine acts towards this project. And shared that I also want to draw a poster for the event.
Kirill shared with me that they got a blank canvas staying in their house for a while now, with quite a surprised face.
Happy seemed very chilled about the idea of playing in front of a supermarket.
“It’s open 24 hours. All island comes here at the end of their night.” He shared.
“Oh? Where will you play there? Is there any place for you to put your setup on?” I asked.
“For me it’s easy. I will bring our 4 yellow puffs there, take the controller on my lap” he said, like that’s what he does all day, every day.
He has this attitude toward life: everything is super chill for him.
Happy was speaking very basic English, time to time getting support from Kirill and Google (from Russian to English). Still, everything he said was direct and sounded deep to me. His vibe was continuous, coming with one unwavering frequency – true, unapologetic, and without the 2334 to prove anything.
I was extremely glad to find a man who seemed to have a deeper interest and understanding in life, in happiness. I wanted to dive deeper into those topics and understand them on another level for myself too.
I started a new Instagram page called ‘HappySmileReality’ and began sharing our events there. It felt really good to support in a way, that I could.
In a way that Happy was truly interested in. He wasn’t interested in many things in general.
It’s better to say that he was only interested in subjects he wanted to see in his future. Only when there is a true goal inside, and that goal contains happiness, love, or happy smile.
For him, the Instagram account was a way to bring valuable messages into this reality.
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“Happy smile, he said, – is the indicator of true feelings of love and happiness. Not only ‘happy’, or not only ‘smile’.
‘Smile’ alone might not be happy, and even the word ‘happy’ by itself people could use to make not the best creations.
‘Happy smile’ is the right choice of living. I want your happy smile. I want my mama’s, this tree’s, children’s, animals, even this table’s happy smile. Following happy smile only brings more of it.”
4. “WHO THESE SONGS FOR?”
Two days in, we found ourselves cruising around the island on Happy Smile’s scooter. As we rode along, I started singing a song;
‘Mr. Lover, lover, mmm, mr. Lover, lover, mmmmm… She calls me mr. Boombastic, tells me fantastic, touches me inna me back, she say,– i’m rooo-..’
It was a song called ‘Bombastic’ by Shaggy that I enjoyed singing. Happy was momentarily taken aback and asked me where I knew the song from.
To me, it was a funny question – I mean, who doesn’t know that song? For Happy, my choice of song carried a deeper message. Playfully referring to him as ‘Mr. Romantic, Fantastic mmmm’ seemed to carry a deeper message.
I discovered that this song had been in his life since childhood. Even though he didn’t understand any of the English lyrics, he mimicked the voices after listening to them many times.
I was picking these waves of feelings inside of me, as my mind whispered songs and themes that felt highly correlated to his story on this planet, mirroring his journey.
For years of my life, I had been listening to many of the songs from his sets – over and over again, singing with them, driving with them, loving them, and feeling a deep connection.
He shared with me that he didn’t even know where those songs came into his laptop from and he even named a few sets as ‘Who these songs for?’
A few weeks before our meeting, I was riding my motorbike in India, in a town called Auroville. It was a remarkably serene evening, yet I felt a little somber inside, almost like missing a person I had never even met.
There was a song stuck in my head, though I couldn’t fully remember the lyrics or the artist. The melody grew louder and louder in my mind. I stopped near a banyan tree and sat near it to check Google, trying to find and listen to it. I wrote a few words from the lyrics that were coming to my mind:
“I’m falling… ninini ninini for change ninininii nii niii niii.”
Still, I couldn’t find the song. So I simply sat and allowed myself to feel the feeling I was going through.
And then, right after I sang Shaggy to Happy, he sang THAT VERY SONG to me! – a deeply moving song called ‘Shallow’ by Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper.
I want to send you a little beautiful message dear past me;
Believe in yourself that even when you feel confused and don’t know what is going to happen, amazing things are waiting for you.
Believe in yourself. Even when you feel confused and don’t know what is going to happen, trust that amazing things are already waiting for you.
When you are done swimming in the shallow, life will carry you into greater oceans you have never experienced before.
Trust. Time is here to support you.
Thank you, dear divine time.
Life is very funny in its own way.
I choose to believe even more that the universe supports humans with similar goals to come together in their lives. And that nothing is a coincidence in this beautiful life.
Thank you, dear beautiful universe, for supporting me to find my Happy Smile.
I want to understand you more.
5. WHAT IS LOVE? WHAT IS HAPPINESS?
In the first days of meeting Happy, I found myself thinking about the concepts of love and happiness way more frequently.
Despite teaching yoga for the past few years and having a deep appreciation for these concepts, I realized I still struggled to define or describe them clearly. Even though I felt their presence in my daily life, putting them into simple words was not easy.
What is love, truly? How can I put my finger on it and share it simply, for myself even?
Questions like ‘Does he love me?’ or ‘Do I love her?’ stirred conflicts in my mind whenever I went deeper into that rabbit hole.
Then, Happy offered his perspective: ‘Love is attention in my reality.’
At first, I was taken aback. ‘Just attention? What about the feeling of it?’ I questioned.
‘Attention is growing those feelings,’ he shared patiently.
“Sharing my attention with the tea I am drinking, is making me see and appreciate that tea. Sharing my true attention with my body, while I am washing it for example, makes it possible for me to slow my mind, and come to the moment. It is giving me a chance to share my love with the action I am taking.”
So the question that had been in my head – ‘Does a person love me? Do I love them?’ – solved itself faster than I could imagine:
When anyone chooses to share their true attention with me, they love me.
When I choose to share my attention
with anyone & anything, I do love them.
This simple equation became a transformative realization. It cut through the complexities and gave me a straightforward guide.
Wow, wow, wow – the simplicity of this enlightenment was liberating.
“Whatever I share my attention with, I grow my love towards it. By sharing my attention = I am loving it, I am inviting more of it into my life, into my future” Happy Smile shared.
I wanted more clarification, “Does that mean when I talk about the problems in my life, I am loving and growing those? Or when I talk about that one person I don’t like—”
“Hahaha, yes,” he interrupted with a smile. “You are growing those feelings and inviting more of them and similar experiences into your future. That is your creating power. Where you choose to use it, depends on you. What you think is true. Start thinking how you want it to be.
“Wow” I thought. My habit of ‘just mentioning things I know’ was actually inviting similar examples and experiences into my life. I am going to be way more careful about where my attention goes.
I liked the quote: ‘Where focus goes, energy flows.’ I felt that it was time to share my true attention with it and take it seriously.
In that moment, the connection between attention, love, and creation became clear. The power to shape my reality lay in the choices I made about where to direct my attention and, consequently, my love.
It was a powerful reminder that every thought, word, and conversation is contributing to the creation of my future.
6. BEING SURE GROWS SELF-BELIEF
My whole life, I was in awe of passionate people – passionate about what they doing in this life. Whether it was about what they were studying, what they were doing as a hobby, or choosing to follow as a career.
It seems to me that those people were ‘lucky enough’ to be sure of what they truly wanted in this life. They seemed very happy about their choice and what those choices were bringing into their lives. They had plans around it and paths to follow…
In contrast, for years and years, I took pride in multitasking. Being super-fast with tasks I had in hand seemed like a useful skill that people around me often spoke highly of it.
Absorbing Happy Smile’s insight made me realize that, in my rush to accomplish many things, I wasn’t able share my true attention, with anything I was doing. I was “just doing it” for the sake of being done with it. No patience. No true attention = No true love.
I was a ‘jumper’ from one project to another. I usually became better than the beginner level, collecting future-promising skills within me in many of the things I shared my attention with. After a while, though, I would move on to the next thing.
It became clearer to me that I was creating borders between myself and the outside world, while also doubting my own skills.
For the last few years, I have enjoyed being inside my body, connecting and discovering philosophies to set my mind and heart free.
One thing that was truly fascinating to me was spirituality. Spirituality was filled with messages that ‘everything is possible in this reality.’
Eager to believe in a life larger than what I had been taught or experienced, I delved into various spiritual practices. My journey took me through the realms of Yoga Philosophy, religions, Shamanism, Sufism, astrology, ancient mythology, and even witchcraft and Reiki, among many others.
Each held its own set of systems, rules, beliefs, and books, often discussing the concept of love, and how to be happy and healthy. Yet, none of them provided a clear and simple code that I could incorporate into my daily life, free from the rigid (or soft) rules of their systems.
By sharing my attention with these topics, systems, and beliefs, I was also giving my power and time to them in order to understand life a little better. Understanding myself and truly finding myself inside of this big game, was my goal all along.
What was not clicking inside my soul was how to be sure of myself within a system I hadn’t created.
Am I truly grasping and experiencing the whole philosophy and purpose of these systems, as they were created many years ago? How possible was it for me to speak with sureness about them and all the details they contained?
From experience, I can say: yes, when I believe in them, they work for me somehow. Still, it depended on the level of belief I had in each topic.
Being 100% sure about any of these systems didn’t seem much possible for the near future of mine.
So, thank you to all the beautiful humans who created these systems – and many more – for the betterment of humanity, to support evolution and self-discovery in this reality. I appreciate you, and whoever chooses to follow any systems out there, I want their freedom to do what they want.
For myself, I want to grow my self-belief through the topics I can speak about with sureness.
I am not interested in directly sharing information from a ‘book’ I only read. I want to align with the information that comes my way through beautiful sources and grow rooted feelings toward it through experience – so it feels true within and reflects into my outside world.
From this perspective, I choose to share only my true experiences – information I can speak with 100% certainty – freely, with anyone, at any time.
My goal is to happy smile.
My goal is to grow self-belief.
And being sure supports that growth strongly.
7. SLOWING TIME
I guess the intensive talks and deeper understanding of love came a bit later in my journey. The first month of our meeting, we were in Thailand, and I was floating into that reality with a fully carefree mindset.
Happy seemed super carefree himself. He didn’t have a phone, there wasn’t any water or electricity in his villa, and he was always super happy to be on the beach at any time.
I remember him vividly – in leopard-printed swimming shorts, with his long, slim body and toned abs, a happy smile on his face (and tattooed on his neck), hugging the ground. Motionless. I could leave him lying down and find him at the same spot hours later, possibly in the same position.
He was really serious about contact with the planet and nature. He had his own way of it. Even though I was already feeling beautiful feelings toward nature, I didn’t fully get back then how deeply connected he was.
He often gets super excited about the big rocks we see around the island. Pointing towards the big ones as we pass by, to show me too, with big excitement.
Contarary to me, he was far away from being a spiritual hippie— not doing ceremonies, yoga, or even reading books in general. Yet he was super equipped with different kinds of information about the planet and life on it.
The more time I had with him, the more I started to understand that all the information I had been seeking from books, teachers, and gurus was coming to him from his inner world.
As if he had some type of inner internet, downloading all the information directly into his consciousness. And slowing his time was his key to tapping into it.
By living as an example of slowness, Happy shared with me the opportunity to tap into the magic of life. When I stopped rushing and consciously slowed my time, I began to catch glimpses of “alive moments” – aligning myself with a slower frequency of being.
And when I dare to think about the very smart, rooted characters – especially the feminine, even fictional, ones I had the chance to look up to – I recall that they were all far from being reactive or fast. They were mostly observant, deeply aware of themselves, and tuned into the energy of their environment, of nature, and of the alive beings around them.
It may sound simple, yet how many times could I truly say I had slowed time completely – to share my full attention with the earth, with the ocean, or to look at a dog and understand her beautiful inner world while being fully myself?
What if we all have that inner internet and haven’t figured out how to fully tap into it for longer periods of our lives?
8. “7-ELEVEN EVENT”
On the evening of the 7-Eleven event, we gathered all the equipment, posters, and the donation box with happy smiles drawn on it. I jumped on Kirill’s bike to meet up with Happy after.
After a while, I was shocked to see Happy behind us, driving his motorbike like a pro with two big yellow puffs balanced in front. He created a hilarious scene that brightened the day.
We set up everything together. Happy sat on a puff with a mixer on his lap, ready to start playing.
As people began to arrive, we shared what we had, and soon the atmosphere became vibrant with discussions about happiness and love. As the conversations grew deeper, we encouraged everyone to share what they wanted for their future.
Step by step, as I heard people’s wants for their future, I began to realize how liberating it was to think about them in terms of their future selves. Without much information about their pasts, I saw them as individuals with a whole life ahead, shaping their future, the way they wanted it to be.
This event holds deep meaning for me, as it was the first time I heard DJ Happy Smile and experienced the way he played his music. It was a new experience for me to see him focusing on his laptop and on the mixer fully. Big attention, deep love.
He was sharing such deep attention with the music that he wasn’t aware of who was coming or going, or of what was being talked about. He wasn’t even smiling, at all.
As if, he was in some different universe and his only purpose was, to be there, and to do what he wanted to do = playing his music.
Doing it exactly the way he wanted it to be, was bringing him true happiness.
At one point, I grabbed my little flute and beatboxed along with his music. I wanted to be involved in this beautiful experience.
It felt like I could catch a few hints about the way he devotedly does whatever he is doing.
At the end of the night, after great talks, new connections, and a few donations, he finished his set and finally raised his head from the computer with a big happy smile on his face.
“Oh, I really float.” he said. He was totally unaware of what was happening around him, made me feel like he was coming off of his space ship.
***
In one of our conversations, he mentioned that he hadn’t become sure of himself – about who he is and what his true goal was – until he was 38 years old.
It was an intriguing topic. What caught my attention even more in that moment was: what was the age of this gentleman, really? I became very curious to know. Finally, I asked:
“Until you were 38, hm? What is your age now?”
“You mean this human body?” he replied, pointing at himself – as if I could have been asking about other realities or dimensions, or as if there were any other “body” around to refer to.
“Yes!” I said, with impatience quite clear in my voice.
“I turned 40… or maybe 41, I’m not sure. I choose to delete the past baby, every day. I am not counting anymore,” he said.
9. START LIVING: BE THE MAIN CHARACTER OF YOUR LIFE
From time to time, I found myself feeling confused. Happy seemed like a person who genuinely knew how to enjoy life, and who had figured it all out for himself.
I, on the other hand, was losing track of who I was and how to be myself. I ended up sharing my attention with everything and everyone, getting caught up in the different realities life threw at me.
In stressful moments, I rushed, became clumsy, and struggled to respect my time – and even his.
One particular day stands out in my memory – I was following him around the island on my scooter. It wasn’t the most comfortable experience for me, since I was still new to driving a scooter and he was a professional driver.
Until that day, he kept sharing with me how to create my experiences the way I wanted.
“It is only possible by not sharing your attention with the things and scenarios you don’t want in your life. Focus on what you want to see.”
It was an amazing idea to focus on the scenarios I want to see in the future.
Yet in practice, I was feeling quite fragile when I was facing unwanted experiences in life, ending up judging myself and feeling guilty.
Internally, I was finding myself thinking: ‘I don’t want to keep him waiting’ and ‘I don’t want to make him uneasy with my driving.’ I was dwelling on scenarios of what I DID NOT WANT, instead of focusing on what I WANTED.
This approach heightened my stress as I realized I was causing him to wait and grow frustrated.
I hurried to catch up with him, speeding down a hill, as my stress levels increased, I ended up slowly tumbling off my scooter.
Fortunately, nothing happened other than a minor scratch on my knee. Oh, and my side mirror had popped out from the impact with the ground.
I played it cool, pretending nothing had happened. I stashed the mirror in my bag, lifted the bike, and kept trailing him.
A few minutes later, I realized it wasn’t the smartest move to ride the scooter without the side mirror. So, I stopped him and asked for his support with the mirror.
He stopped, visibly surprised, and asked me what happened. I shared while feeling a little guilty, not realizing I was the one creating him as frustrated in my own head.
‘You are rushing,’ he said in a straight voice, then asked: ‘What do you want?’
I had such mixed feelings in that moment, realizing this guy had been asking me what I wanted since day one. I remember he was asking this question to me over and over again, on that first night when we were in the villa.
When I thought about it that day, I felt off-guard and couldn’t find a satisfying answer. It felt like I did not know this man to ask anything from him.
I said “I’m not interested in you giving me anything. How about you? What do you want?”
He was impressed to see a person asking him the same question. He only smiled and didn’t share his answer, as if my asking was already all he wanted.
And now, coming to this moment, my energy was stressing and shaking inside my body as I heard this question.