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9th circle

I was destined for the 9th circle of hell,

But if I had the chance,

I’d willingly descend even lower,

Because I’m a fucking asshole man.

I really don’t know,

I really don't can,

I’m just a fucking asshole man.

Why postpone it for later?

Maybe I should head straight to hell.

Satan awaits me, but I’m too much of an asshole man,

And, to be honest, I’m too lazy to go there.

I really don’t know,

I really don't can,

I’m just a fucking asshole man.

Perhaps only if a bus to hell passes by,

And the crowd shoves me in,

Satan will be waiting for me.

I really don’t know,

I really don't can,

I’m just a fucking asshole man.

So be it,

Exactly like that.

Like a Seb

We were like the movie stars, you and me,

Golden scenes in a silent symphony,

I played my part with broken lines,

But you deserved the perfect rhyme.

You wanted love that sings, not fades,

A life that shines, not breaks and sways,

I gave you dreams, they were all I had,

But dreams don’t fill the heart you held so bad.

Now you're living in a world we framed,

With someone else who's not the same.

And I'm left spinning in the dark,

Like Seb, watching from afar.

I built castles in the sky for you,

But they fell with every breath I drew,

You found a home in someone’s truth,

While I still chase a fading youth.

I reached for stars, but you needed earth,

And all my victories lost their worth,

I sang for love, but the tune went cold,

Now all that's left are stories untold.

Now you're living in a world we framed,

With someone else who's not the same.

And I'm left spinning in the dark,

Like Seb, watching from afar.

You dance in dreams we used to share,

With someone who could take you there,

While I’m just a shadow in the wings,

A memory of forgotten things.

So I’ll play my tune in an empty room,

Like Seb, I'll fade beneath the moon.

You’ve got your happy ever after,

And I’m still lost in fleeting laughter.

Panic Attack

Whispers in the dark, like shattered glass they break,

I chase the ghost of you through every breath I take.

You're floating somewhere high, a silhouette in light,

An angel drifting closer in the quiet night.

But I can't move, I'm terrified,

You slip right through, I feel denied.

You leave me empty, hollowed out,

A shadow creeping with no doubt.

I see you smile in someone else’s arms,

Yet still you haunt me, lured by fading charms.

The fear wraps round my chest, it keeps me bound and still,

Your presence chills my bones against my will.

But I can't move, I'm paralyzed,

You slip right through, no place to hide.

You drain the life from every part,

An angel tearing out my heart.

I see you fall, but still you rise,

A ghost beneath those hollow skies.

Your wings, once bright, now cast a shade,

And in your flight, I am betrayed.

I try to close my eyes, but still you find a way,

Your shadow whispers softly in the night’s decay.

I can’t remember love, just all the fear inside,

The angel that I dread, in which I once confide.

And I can't breathe, you steal my air,

You pass right through, but still you’re there.

You leave me empty, hollowed out,

A ghost I fear, yet dream about.

And when you fly, I fall apart,

Your presence tearing at my heart.

Through the Jordan

She’s walking in the desert, her heart like barren sand,

He leads her like a shepherd, but with a cruel hand.

He built her golden idols, but none could make her whole,

She’s lost inside his shadow, searching for her soul.

I see her eyes still burning bright,

A ghost of love beneath the night.

But I’ve crossed the Jordan, found my peace,

Her chains still bind, her cries won’t cease.

I wish I could release her heart,

But I’ve found my way, we’re worlds apart.

He’s her Pharaoh, ruling tight, hardening his heart,

She prays for freedom every night, but can't depart.

He fights the battles that don’t heal, only break her down,

She drowns in his possession, while he wears the crown.

I see her eyes still burning bright,

A ghost of love beneath the night.

But I’ve crossed the Jordan, found my peace,

Her chains still bind, her cries won’t cease.

I wish I could release her heart,

But I’ve found my way, we’re worlds apart.

I thought I was the worst of men, unworthy of her grace,

But he's the serpent in disguise, lost in his embrace.

I've walked through fire and the flood, to find my promised land,

She still wanders through the dust, reaching for my hand.

Her eyes still plead, but my heart's been sealed,

In arms of love, my wounds have healed.

I wish her peace, I wish her light,

But I’ve found my home beyond the night.

No more regret, no looking back,

She’s in his storm, I’m on my track.

Judge Holden

The twilight fades as I descend below,

Among the faithless, where no roses grow.

The ancient poets speak in broken lines,

Yet wisdom there’s none in hollow signs.